Here's the thing... I wasn't the MOST popular person in school, nor did I strive to be. Yet, I was, in my own way, a social butterfly (and still am).. to a fault. Thing is, I invest WAY too much in other people (I think a lot of us do). Whether it's depending on other people to make us happy or to simply make us feel better about ourselves... it's not healthy to need other people's love more than your own... can you truly love another, before you learn to love yourself?
You have to put yourself first ... not in a selfish way but in an emotional and spiritual way. It took me just under 40 years to learn this simple lesson!
A year ago, things were looking up for Ed and I but emotionally I was a MESS (doesn't even cover the depth of it). Then I made a leap of FAITH and walked into a church after 20 years...
Enter God.... love in my heart, patience, acceptance, and determination - all gifts given in return!
Fast forward ONE YEAR ~ My life takes a serious turn from GREAT to horrible in the blink of an eye (literally) and I couldn't be happier or feel more LOVED!
Oddly enough... though I have "down" moments and occasionally days; I am grateful that as bad as things are, they are not worse. I am thankful to be able to spend more time on this earth, with the people I love.
If I've learned anything; it's that all you have in the END is your MEMORIES... you decide what kind you make!
